BRIGHTER

2010-01-14T11:21:00.000-08:00

Moving on to elsewhere. Tc X

Ugly

2010-01-13T05:57:00.000-08:00

I chopped off too much of my hair. Now i miss my long dry and knotted hair. But it's gone. For good. Apparently the lady can't get her estimations right. But oh well, say hello to soft and untangled hair for the first time. (Some self-comfort here)

Courage

2010-01-11T08:38:00.000-08:00

God is good. He gave me dreams and He made them reality. Another small milestone and we're all good to goooo. On a side note, i won't forget the clique (i hate this word btw i just have to use it), the best people i've met in KCPSS and yes we'll squeeze time for each other even if we are all heading to different paths/leading different lives. Renee's card was so sweet awww

2010-01-10T07:37:00.000-08:00

How my mood fluctuates. Must be the time of the month.

2010-01-08T08:50:00.000-08:00

We got bored while waiting for Ryan, and then Ryan came and very reluctantly(at first) joined in the fun hahahahahahahaha. Yeah they say: cheap thrill much~~

2010-01-07T21:23:00.000-08:00

I spent the whole later part of last night thinking about my future school, where would i be, what would i be doing. I think no matter where i end up in, life would be really different. And maybe, just maybe, i'm prepared and looking forward. X

2010-01-07T07:58:00.000-08:00

Met up with my long-lost bitchybestfr today (Eqa), and we stuffed ourselves with a little too much food. really. Bumped into Liy and Melly, apparently they wanted to surprise us but we ended up unintentionally surprising them instead hahahahaha. chilled at starbucks and here goes a few of the many photobooth pictures.

2010-01-05T21:57:00.000-08:00

Currently at work with nothing to do. Okay actually i'm just lazy. Photoboothg facebookg and itunes. Teppanyaki for dins tonight. x

2010-01-05T06:43:00.000-08:00

So work has been fine, but i hate dragging myself out of bed everyday at 11am and planning what to wear. I mean, i'm only sixteen i wouldn't have so many office wear the rest of my colleagues do. This wasn't my dream holiday job by the way, i've always wanted to work at an ice-cream parlour where everything is clean sparkly and i would just scoop ice-cream the whole day. Almost no-brainer. BUT. i shall not complain, since it's near to my second home and the pay is almost double an ice-cream parlour would pay. Looking forward to tomorrow till saturday. I love friends and plans :)

Where you are the one, the one that lies close to me
Whispers "Hello, I've missed you quite terribly"
I fell in love, in love with you suddenly
Now there's no place else I could be but here in your arms

2010-01-04T08:14:00.000-08:00

When we were 13, 15, and 17 again.

2010

2010-01-01T00:21:00.000-08:00

New year was spent at the Siloso Beach party (which btw, wearing jeans to a beach party is totally not cool) and random coffeeshop talk till 6 in the morning. HAPPY 2010! New year new beginnings, have a good one everybody. Pictures till i get them.

With love x

Cannonball - Damien Rice

2009-12-30T08:36:00.000-08:00

Today was first day of work (supposed to be work orientation or something but mm don't know why i'm working already) and i can't believe i'm earning my own money now. Feels good. Anyway, i love snuggling up in each other's beds with Natz and we would just stone laugh talk about stuff and hug every single huggable thing on the bed, at our most unglam state. Not forgetting how retarded we look when we stuff those things into our own faces and sniffing them. But really, i love it!!! And i love her too 'cos nobody else would ever do that with me.

2009-12-29T09:35:00.000-08:00

My tummy these days hasn't been treating me right these days. And i don't know how i feel towards.. sigh oh well. it'll be a new year 2 days time, doesn't feel like it. but it better be good. gdnight all x

2009-12-27T03:17:00.000-08:00

On my bed now with Natzz, 3 Macs in the room!

Love x

2009-12-26T12:25:00.000-08:00

I guard my heart like some kind of castle.

2009-12-24T23:38:00.000-08:00

Because everybody is out with their boyfriend/girlfriend/family/other friends, i'm spending my Christmas day at home. Just because i don't have a boyfriend or a someone special, i refuse to go out with my family cos i'm on a cold war with my mum, and well friends are out with their other friends. This is so sad. I hope the night gets better.

2009-12-23T12:01:00.000-08:00

My nose looks so huge. Anyway i'm blogging from my new toy, i'm loving it and i will treat it well. I need to pee. But i'm so lazy i'm well-covered and all comfy under my blanket already. Hmm. 0400 i think i'm sleeping, town w th girlies later. gdnight lovelies. and happy birthday Dad, love you for being the best dad in the world x

2009-12-22T22:23:00.000-08:00

I'm starting work on 4 January 2010 and i can't wait cos the pay is damn awesome. But as for now, i have 0 cash and i do not intend to withdraw any from my POSB card. So good luck to me i don't know how am i gonna survive, maybe i'll just camp at home. Er okay maybe not, i'm lying. I'm getting my Macbook later yaaayyy life is good. Xmas is here and end of 2009 is nearing, this year is definitely gonna end right!!!! :) Love everybodehhh

HAHAHAAHAHAHAHAAHA <3

2009-12-21T09:17:00.000-08:00

the generic man says: (12:51:04 AM)

the generic man says: (12:51:06 AM)

you owe me loh

the generic man says: (12:51:08 AM)

seriously

Kristy says: (12:51:14 AM)

owe you what?

the generic man says: (12:51:23 AM)

stuff

the generic man says: (12:51:33 AM)

favours

Kristy says: (12:51:42 AM)

HAHHAAHAHAHHAAH

Kristy says: (12:51:43 AM)

FAVOURS FOR?

the generic man says: (12:51:51 AM)

i hear you whine like 1 fucking cb mad dog

the generic man says: (12:51:55 AM)

that alone is 10 favours sia

(and another) -

Me: "Are we gonna dress in green and red for our Christmas dinner?"

J: "Are you crazy? That's a christmas tree. How about you dress as a christmas tree, A dress up as a gift box, and N dress as the sheep. As for me, i'll dress up as Jesus. That makes a complete family."

2009-12-20T23:27:00.000-08:00

Thank you and i love you.

2009-12-18T22:12:00.000-08:00

WAIT. IT'S ALL ABOUT WAITING.
One day my fringe will be the length of my hair, i will be a year older, and many things would have been different by then. in a year's time, and more years to come.. time never stays still. never waits for anybody.

2009-12-17T22:35:00.000-08:00

We live in a beautiful world, yeah we do yeah we do.

(More than a month since school ended and i am jobless, neither am i bored. the majority lied.)

2009-12-16T22:48:00.000-08:00

Babygirllll i know you're having alot of fun at Japan right now but i definitely want you back here in Singapore!!! See you on the 20th anyway :)
I'm back from church camp and it was awesome 4 days spent. Though i came back looking like i had some skin disease thanks to the mosquitoes at Pulau Ubin, i sure had great fun. Great people great God!
I'm craving for alottttt of food, now who wants to send me some crabs, green tea and shaker fries?

NEED TO BATHE, BYE!

Thoughts

2009-12-12T10:06:00.000-08:00

The reason i'm still up despite early morning/church camp tomorrow is because i randomly stumbled upon my eyecandy on Facebook. Now i feel quite stalker-ish but.. that's what Facebook is forrr no? I should be sleeping. I finally got my YSL golden box i am i ammm happy. I have only five hours of sleep left. I should be sleeping. really, bye for now.

X

Feeling

2009-12-09T08:31:00.000-08:00

I feel depressed. this must be the time of the month when i do not wish to talk to anybody and life just feels so.. bleak. gna crash my bed now, gdnight and gdbye x

2009-12-08T08:04:00.000-08:00

You should know. I've never once forgot you, for four whole years. and counting.

2009-12-08T00:20:00.000-08:00

Chris and i were talking about guys and meeting the right one etc. (for me)

Christabel says: (3:54:31 PM)

the right one will come

Christabel says: (3:54:32 PM)

on his way

Christabel says: (3:54:43 PM)

just very long journey cos he's taking a plane from mars

Kristy says: (3:54:53 PM)

thats an alien

Christabel says: (3:56:07 PM)

no he's not

Christabel says: (3:56:35 PM)

he's just a super cool dude who has interesting hobbies like flying to mars for no apparent reason then flying back 10 years later

Christabel says: (3:59:06 PM)

are you like feeling better now?

Christabel says: (3:59:07 PM)

i mean

Christabel says: (3:59:10 PM)

cool dude and all

Anyway, i'm a poor kid now. no more impulsive buys and cabbing and wasting money on random stuff. no more, till i have money again. DAMN SAD OKAY

2009-12-06T06:29:00.000-08:00

Must own this. xxx

edit: Omg i just saw somewhere that YSL beauty products are already removed from Singapore. to think i was crazying over it for the past few hours. i'm actually quite stupid.
-whines excessively

2009-12-05T05:43:00.000-08:00

Just because i don't say anything, doesn't mean i don't like you

2009-12-03T06:26:00.000-08:00

Every meet-up with him (though not often) just makes me think alot after that. it's like even though we do not talk about her anymore, i'll still be reminded of her nonetheless. it's funny how someone's life can get so intertwined with another, like even though you try so hard to move on, try so hard to forget, you just keep returning to where you once belong. and maybe that's where you will always, belong. it's just like Fate working in the most obvious way. i knew meeting her was never a mistake, cos from him and her i've learnt so much. the good from the bad, the right from the wrong. i know God has never misplaced anybody in my life.

I don't know if i'm really having a headache or if it's just in the mind. argh

STONE

2009-11-30T09:01:00.000-08:00

I'm so tired, woke up at an unearthly hour of 730am today and as i'm typing this my body can't really hold any longer.. my room's a mess with everything scattered all over my tabletop and for the first few times i couldn't really care less. Today was spent at Marina Barrage and i got a slight tan, surprisingly. Anyway i was just thinking, that if Eve didn't eat that APPLE (bible bible) right from the beginning, how would life be now? wouldn't everything be perfect and sweet and nobody makes mistakes so nobody actually learns or experience anything? There's so much running through my mind now but hmm i don't really like wearing matters of the heart on my sleeve. so... goodnight. x

Heartbreaker

2009-11-28T07:24:00.000-08:00

Went to Malaysia for 2 days and it wasn't really a pleasant trip. But oh well, look on the bright side, all i did was just eat and sleep.

Just keep quiet and don't say a thing, though life's really unfair sometimes. i feel you

2009-11-27T05:20:00.000-08:00

I'm craving for the comfort of home. quite badly. :(

rubbish post

2009-11-25T22:01:00.000-08:00

Hi i'm waiting for stupid eqa to call and i shall leave the house already, but she always takes forever to prepare.
Anyway i'm excited for picnic on Mondaaay
AND
I NEED SLEEP.
okay eqa just called bye!

I'm on the verge, i'm on the verge

2009-11-24T09:54:00.000-08:00

Prom was yesterday. and yeah it was the usual mad-camwhoring sessions with buffet and a dance floor, the ones you see at other schools prom. Just now was Nat's surprise party! love you babygirl hope you had fun and yes i did have quite a hard time lying and hiding things from you. Pictures will be on Facebook (but it's kinda screwing me up right now so i'll upload tmr).

(It doesn't really matter what they say. I know clearly who i trust and feel comfortable around. these people might not be many, but they are all i need.)

Macau

2009-11-22T02:56:00.000-08:00

Kristy says: (5:16:56 PM)

eh why you talk so funny ah

the generic man says: (5:17:11 PM)

what's so funny

the generic man says: (5:17:13 PM)

funny meh

the generic man says: (5:17:15 PM)

normal what

Kristy says: (5:17:17 PM)

the generic man says: (5:17:24 PM)

very abnormal meh?

Kristy says: (5:17:27 PM)

YEAH

the generic man says: (5:17:32 PM)

like how

Kristy says: (5:17:38 PM)

like quite sian

Kristy says: (5:17:43 PM)

and no vulgarities

the generic man says: (5:18:03 PM)

knn no vulgarities means i've become a better man lah

the generic man says: (5:18:10 PM)

wah fuck sia you seriously -_______________________-

I'm back from Macau/HK. Weather was awesome, so was food, shopping and lodging. But everyday i smelt like ciggs, and my brother and i played Jackpot and lost around 1k SG dollars. That part, not cool. Took less than ten pictures 'cos i was in specs and ugly hair throughout the whole trip. But anyway i loved it :)

PS. It's prom tomorrow and i haven't got my shoes.

PPS. Don't come fucking scold me just 'cos you are so weird childish and paranoid, fucking childish insecure bitch.
PPPS. I love this picture from that day

2009-11-18T07:39:00.000-08:00

Today i saw the cutest JC(ACJC) boy in town. Yes Ju, we have same taste and *DOES HAND SIGN*! Hahahahahahahahaha, but erm we shall talk about fate later.

Anyway, i'll be gone for a little while. so goodbye and takecare for now x

There you go

2009-11-17T12:24:00.000-08:00

It's 4.25am. I've been home for two days straight, i really can stay home and not feel bored at all. So i've been... sleeping, waking up for food, surfing the net, going back to sleep, watching television and then surfing the net again. i'm actually quite recharged.
So anyway, was just thinking.. life is really unfair isn't it. sometimes, actually most of the time i don't get why things turn out the way they do. why do some people get something good so easily, something others desire for so badly, when they probably don't even deserve it? why? i think i'm jealous envious and really curious.

Anyway, i should be sleeping. should remind myself that life is good and certainly God is fair. seeing Ju in 8 hours time. so gdnight/morng lovely x

2009-11-16T08:00:00.000-08:00

(Hottest, hottest <3)

"I know exactly how that is. To love somebody who doesn't deserve it. Because they are all you have. Because any attention is better than no attention."

2009-11-15T07:38:00.000-08:00

I'm your biggest fan i'll follow you until you love me~

Finally

2009-11-14T12:30:00.000-08:00

Headlights

2009-11-13T07:47:00.000-08:00

Out with my Cherrypie today, was super fun yet spent alot of money as well. Watched 2012 and i fell asleep. Well unintentionally. Brought my camera but didn't take a single picture. Okay anyway i should be wrapping presents now, procrastination and laziness is kicking in again.

;Natasha says: (11:37:51 PM)

EH YKNOW SERIOUSLY GIRLFRIENDS PWN GUYS

PS. I don't feel good about you, and about it.

Hi

2009-11-12T01:50:00.000-08:00

I shall never attempt to remember anything. Yesterday was a day out with the Bestfriend, and before i left the house i told myself to bring a camera but i forgot the next minute. It happened a number of times, very annoying. Also i've got to stop procrastinating and start hunting for Prom stuff. O Level is officially over and yeah, say hello to the plans-packed calender! :)

You think you're so old and matured and awesome and righteous, i seriously don't give a shit. But you don't even know me, you are not even fit to be called a 'friend'. So tell me, 'matured' 19 year old, who the fuck are you to judge me?

Faint

2009-11-10T08:13:00.000-08:00

"When you try your best, but you don't succeed
When you get what you want, but not what you need
When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep"

2009-11-06T10:26:00.001-08:00

I shall stop blogging till i get pictures.

2009-11-05T08:07:00.001-08:00

I hate this feeling of wanting something that is lost, come back. But i couldn't do anything else, could i? Thanks for making me feel this way, from the bottom of my heart, i really thank you. (YES it's sarcasm)

2009-11-05T08:06:00.001-08:00

Hype

2009-11-04T22:59:00.001-08:00

I think it's a little too late to start loving Biology just 24 hours before the exam right? I'm not interested in how my stomach and intestines work to give me a good digestive system, seriously.

2009-11-02T23:27:00.005-08:00

I have sleeping issues sometimes. Like last night. Last night was terrible, i had fever and rheumatism-like symptoms and my whole body was being a bitch. I woke up at 4am, studied History, fell asleep and had to drag my dead self up for paper at 8am. I'm really glad all's over and NEXT WEEK (and the following weeks) SHALL BE AWESOME!!! ^^ This space needs pictures. Also i love the weather!!!!!

2009-11-01T07:30:00.003-08:00

The weather's chilly, the bed's too inviting. I'm having a sorethroat it's a chore to even swallow saliva. My eyes are half shut. I really want to sleep now!! But what am i doing with SS omg somebody just kill me now. And why won't you talk to me already?! Why do things always end up like that? Urghhh sucks sucks sucks :( Sigh. This is not making things any better. I'm feeling angsty and i feel like ripping my notes apart. Bye.

2009-10-30T20:42:00.005-07:00

All's good at this side. How time flies. I want to sleep like crazy. I want to move the detestable books out of sight. Out of sight out of mind~
End of years are always awesome.

This is random. I'm hungry. Goodbye.

2009-10-29T08:40:00.003-07:00

Sometimes i really wish things worked out. I wish i wasn't the one always screwing things up. I wish i wasn't that messed up, on my own. But when it's gone, it's gone. Nothing will be the same. If only.. all's sugarrr spiceee and everything niceee :(

Gdnight X

2009-10-27T18:35:00.001-07:00

Goodmorning world, sleep never fails me! I had a super nice dream last night was kind of wondering why must i wake up. Anyway, Yay! Next friday comes and i'll be freeeeeee~

Gdbye and good luck for papers! X

FASTER

2009-10-25T03:55:00.000-07:00

Hello. Time flies. It's O levels. Like tomorrow. I'm not feeling scared/excited/amused. Toke says i'll not be able to sleep tonight. But this feels like just another Mock/Prelim. I might really feel the urgency when it gets late, for now the night's still young.

I love Burger Shack, BBQ/Tomato/Mayo sauce! Yummmmz.
I also love laughing and more laughing. Makes my day. So today, is a good day :)

All the best!
X

Early Morning

2009-10-23T13:53:00.003-07:00

I can see the fingerprints of God
When i look at you
I can see the fingerprints of God
And i know it's true
You're a masterpiece
That all creation quietly applauds
And you're covered with the fingerprints of God

Good morning, Sunshine!

2009-10-22T08:13:00.001-07:00

There's so much buzz buzz. Everybody's talking about it. Busy preparing for it. For "D DAY". Good for them, their fighting spirit is burning on a hot flame (almost on the verge of exploding i would say). but why is mine hot and cold, hot yet cold? I study, yet half the time spent sitting there is thinking about things i know i shouldn't be thinking of right now. Everyone's striving so hard, too hard. Talk about Peer Pressure. I think about it, i don't even like it here.

2009-10-21T07:47:00.001-07:00

"Up and down on the ferris wheel, just like fluctuations"

Sometimes, the whole of me just fall into a state of misery and the thoughts that follow just doesn't make things any better. It feels like there's something out there, deliberately trying to provoke my thoughts and emotions. I feel helpless, and so i give in. I hate myself for that. I do. I try to fight, and i'm still trying.
I'm fine now, i think.

Goodnight,
X

2009-10-19T09:36:00.005-07:00

I want to abandon everything. Everything. Everything. This doesn't feel right.

2009-10-18T09:18:00.001-07:00

I'm so impressed with technology. I've been home for three days straight and don't even feel the urge to go out. I love staying at home rotting my ass off, looking ugly in gross hair glasses and clothes. Apart from having my meals and heading to the toilet i'm always in my room being an emo anti-social kid and having no connection with civilisation. I like it. Also, i need pictures.

Tomorrow's monday, i hate Mondays.

2009-10-17T06:45:00.003-07:00

Just within a day, everything seem to have changed. All the facts twisted, all the under the covers/behind the scenes, who would have known? It scares me to see the distance one would go just to bring the other down.
Your messed-up lives, i'm out of it.

I spoke a prayer, and i think God answered. I've seen who's there.

2009-10-16T13:42:00.003-07:00

It wasn't easy to fall asleep. I gave up waiting. Till the call came in half an hour ago, i was relieved. And happy, to admit.
You really take my emotions on a rollercoaster ride.

Time check: 4.30am
I'm losing sleep over this. Not wise.

2009-10-15T14:14:00.003-07:00

I'm under the thick warm cover, staring at the little cards, and saw a text which don't really make much sense. I love the warmth of my room, the smell, the silence. Awesome-o. I've realised that my frequency of blogging has gone higher, that's because i need a space to express my feelings. When it's all down, it feels almost like there's a surge of energy flowing out from me. I'm satisfied.

Time check: 5am.
So maybe i should, get some sleep.

Goodmorning world,
X

Going downhill

2009-10-14T21:47:00.003-07:00

Just because of a guy? This is the fucking stupidest thing ever. Now you make me think twice about everything you said, whether those are just fabricated lies. Please grow some sense bitch(since you called me one). I did not fucking steal your boyfriend.

(But it's still heart-wrenching)

Nothing, like this, ever goes right for me. It's always that same old vicious cycle on repeat, will things ever change for the better?

Anyway, i should be studying.

2009-10-13T21:04:00.001-07:00

Back off. I hate guys who treat girls as fuck machines. Go fuck a donkey instead.

2009-10-12T19:29:00.000-07:00

Last night was horrible. My eyes are puffy till now and i need proper good sleep. Please.

Tell me?

2009-10-10T23:07:00.000-07:00

Awkward positions, tryna' get into the screen, and Nat's being an emo kid at the back haha.

I am: room sick, very fascinated with technology and smell like food.

2009-10-09T19:48:00.005-07:00

Omg i finally utilised the internet in my phone after like ten years, and i'm blogging with my phone right now. Feels like i've made a huge discovery HAHAHA. sorry, very lag...

I'm still very excited.

So when?

2009-10-09T05:29:00.000-07:00

When dilemma strikes... stuck in between both, i really don't know what to do.
Gastric hit me yesterday. It feels like someone squeezing lemon on an open wound, prolonged. fucking hurts like crazy.
Have i ever said that i love Breast, June, and Nat. Being with them really makes me feel so at home, my emotions run free and i don't even think twice about how i look.

"Once a kcpian, always a kcpian"
True enough, Nat says we only choose to take pride at the very last moment.

X

Graduation

2009-10-08T02:02:00.000-07:00

Okay. so i lied about me not missing the school.

Reason i survived my last year of secondary school. (Chris's missing)

2009-10-06T04:10:00.000-07:00

I'm graduating in 2 days time. kind of happy to leave this place, nothing i would miss more than the girls. recess time especially, along with all the retarded laughs and stories. my mum just carried my neighbour's baby to my house, he cried upon seeing me. i wished i had a younger baby brother like him, really makes my heart melt. aww.. his name is Kenric by the way. i wish people could cherish their boyfriend/girlfriend more. it's not easy meeting someone you truly love so why keep quarrelling, cheating, etc. i'm envious of couples, cos till now i have not met anybody i really love and would die for. (haha) Today, Nat randomly told me that * was the first person in secondary school that she really liked and i thought about mine too. i really liked him then. We really liked them then. looking back now, years have passed and it's kind of funny, how childish we were.
i've been seeing alot of Sharlene for the past few days. will be seeing her much more during December and i totally can't wait. love that bitttch x

School's out in two days. Have fun and God bless everyone.

2009-10-04T06:27:00.000-07:00

i act cute. i'm sorry. i love Sparky, he's really cute and nice-smelling. makes me feel like i've overcome my fear of dogs. not.. my mum's "MERRY CHRISTMAS" still cracks me up after years. hahahahahaaa i love my mum.

i want to take pictures

2009-10-03T08:07:00.000-07:00

i wish O levels were over. i'd rather grow mushrooms out of my head (haha Json). The dates on the calender shift, getting nearer and nearer to the most dreaded day, i fear. if Singaporeans were less judgemental and stop the whole certificate-is-so-damn-important crap. S'rsly, fuck your brains.

my eyes are strained. the weather's cool.
and. i sleep.

X

Hello!

2009-10-02T06:08:00.000-07:00

i puked in the mrt today. everyone around me like, instantaneously moved 5 steps back. 2 kind souls kept feeding me with tissue paper, i swear i was really really REAAAALLY thankful. After puking, i stupidly asked a man, "erm what am i supposed to do now?" and he stared at me, probably thinking that i'm really weird and maybe pregnant. Poor people who had to survive a long journey in the train after that. "Oops"
This is probably the worst public moment i've had since really long. oh well.. shit happens :(
Round 2 came just when i reached the entrance of my condo. Disgusting.

My neighbour's baby saw me naked. He looked really shocked and i swear he was drooling hahahaahhahaahaaaaa

(yknow, i really wished...)
xx

2009-09-28T08:02:00.000-07:00

MELAN-CHOLY!

A statement like 'I am always worried about you' really makes me kind of happy. and i secretly cherish this love-hate relationship though half of the time we're giving each other shit. Weird how humans work, holding on to things that are not anywhere close to perfection. Or maybe it's just me, being weird. ha.
Yesterday was the first time after countless months i've stepped into the cinema with drinks and popcorn in hand. Had pretty good laughs and i'm happy! Yeah whatever, i don't really have a life now.
Random, but.. Songs really remind me (very vividly) of certain people at a certain point of time. compared to places as most people would say, i think songs can do it better. but i find myself pressing 'next' while the ipod is on shuffle just because i don't want to be reminded of the certain someone. i used to be crazy over those songs, they used to be on repeat everyday. It's like, a 'bad' nostalgia kinda thing..?

I don't see what's bad with smoking. but not when you are fifteen, criticising your friend while she does it, saying that she's trying to 'act cool', and you're doing it as well. how.contradictory.ha.ha.ha. rolls eye.

okay i am feeling very random and i could go on and on and on and on... very rare. i realised this is the longest post in the blogger history i've ever had. ermmm i think it is.

Gdnight,
X

Devices

2009-09-25T02:21:00.000-07:00

Dragged my ass up for school after four hours of sleep the night before, surprisingly didn't fall asleep in class, my body's not functioning like before anymore. The eyelids feel like they're 5kg but it's hard to enter deep sleep. Anyway, school is a waste of time and a totally unconducive environment for revision. Most of the time spent stoning, chatting, or stoning. i could be somewhere else doing something much more productive than that. Yesterday, i realised i really dislike ill-mannered people. (yes it took long) seriously, did the dogs ate them up? or nobody taught you any? you weren't like this before, so forget about me doing you any favours.

Results took me by surprise, and i really have to thank the good Lord! :) but if you're wondering, it's nothing fantastic really, just improvements.

Sending the Tan sisters off tonight. Envious, i wanna go to UK tooo!

Runn in the open field

2009-09-22T03:00:00.000-07:00

I want to puke. Does food not digest when you're asleep? I LOVE MACDONALDS, but... Can't imagine oily chicken patty and french fries swimming in my stomach for so long, and i've heard that french fries stay inside your body and doesn't get digested for days or smth? that's just gross. Not that i have weight issues or anything. Hmm. The day is so laaazy.. woke up from a 4.5hours nap and it's still early, yumzzz! Anyway last night and today left me feeling so floaty and dreamy and it's like as though nothing can burst this little bubble. the best time of the day has got to be tugging myself under the covers before i sleep and just let the thoughts run.. And no, i'm not in love. that's too strong a word to use.

Love being home alone, the sound of silence is just amazingly.. wonderful :)
X

Sandwich

2009-09-20T07:51:00.000-07:00

Stay loving

I MISS MY GIRLIES.

2009-09-19T08:59:00.000-07:00

Whatever words said to me will always be a part of me and although i've forgiven, i'll never forget. Be it days months or even years back. When some things are lost, nothing can salvage it anymore. Crushhh and it's gone. (though i've never meant to hurt you)

Love the weather, wheee bedtime!
Gdnight earthlings
X

2009-09-17T06:11:00.000-07:00

Dear God, you created.. the sun.

and it reflects You, your glory :)

2009-09-15T05:08:00.000-07:00

I mass-tidied my tabletop just now, dumped all the papers (at least 3kg) into a big bag, getting ready to dispose it when November 12 arrives. The room looks so much better now and i'm glad my mum's finally satisfied. No more daily nags! I badly want my hair to grow, the bangs is in a weird shape since my hair is naturally not straight, and whenever i see people with nice long hair/fringe, i would feel a tinge of regret for even cutting my hair in the first place. But then again, since i never comb my hair... they're all tangled up and dead. Feels less like hair, more like rope.

K randomly touched my hair yesterday and her facial expression was classic, along with:
"Aiyo!! *gasps* Later your boyfriend want to caress you, then he run his fingers through your hair and get a shock of his life"

Sob.. you feel my misery?

MEH MEHH!

2009-09-12T20:01:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday Mummykins!! Loveyouloveyouloveyou forever! :)

Not feeling good, this wait seems too long,

And really tough, may the good Lord bless me.

Nat the Pig-Pug (HAHA)

2009-09-10T06:48:00.000-07:00

Maybe you should try placing yourself into the shoes of those who are not as intellectually-inclined as you are, and then you'll see their struggles and maybe take back some of your words..
Anyway i do realise that i have problems expressing myself in words, often when i type a sentence the next thing i'll do is press 'delete' on my keyboard, hmm.. take now for instance, i feel like just deleting the whole post. I hate nights when bad dreams(or nothing in particular) jerk me up from my sleep with my heartbeat racing, palms clamoring with sweat, and having insomnia thereafter.

Kristy: I'm quite whiny in nature, do you think any of my friends actually mind?
June: Erm if they do you won't have any friends.

Dead beat, gdnightt world!
X

2009-09-07T21:54:00.000-07:00

This is when Karma bites you on your ass real hard, and nobody can save you. Should i be gloating? Or should i be feeling sorry? I dreamt a good dream last night, finally one that isn't gloomy and queer.. Woke up feeling happy, but then fiddled with my phone, glanced through some texts and my mood was slightly dampened. Hm.. Funny how in the past, the idea of rejecting and hoping the person never comes back, never speaks to you again, stays almost forever, but as time passes.. the strong resentment fades as well. Ah well, this is hard to comprehend.

X

ITCH

2009-09-05T07:56:00.000-07:00

Squirming on my mum's bed for fifteen minutes, giggling non-stop, hugging and drooling on her pillow, with her trying hard grabbing me to stay still, just so she could attack my ears.. i mean, inner ear. And it's the equivalent to two people holding me, disallowing me movement, and tickling the bottom of my feet.
I feel a pimple sprouting at my lip area, this has been happening more frequently. not a very good sign. Also, i miss long hair and long fringe very much. very very much.. Anddd! i've realised how makeup can make you feel so much more confident? Yes, no?

Okay, so... i'm bored. And have not been blogging properly(not that i actually do). This is probably one of my longest posts. Hehheh.

Gdnight babies
X

Spell

2009-09-04T07:14:00.000-07:00

"Tonight my heart is cold
Lost in your lies, shallow replies"

(2 months ago, and never again)

Hello i'm still alive.
Should i start counting down to freedom? Sounds like a berryberry good idea ^^

That's so you

2009-08-31T22:12:00.000-07:00

I pretty much love cooping myself in my room, it's like number 1 on my 'favourite places to be in' (well not that i have any actually HAHA). It's just lacking a toilet, laptop, remote control to switch off the lights and a beanbag.

Off to bathe!
Catch you soon, X

Clouds

2009-08-28T07:39:00.000-07:00

Feels kind of nice to be away from school for three days (plus plus), however not nice to have inflammed hip muscles and only end up sleeping at five-thirty in the morning.

Life's treating me well now. Or rather, i'm seeing it in a whole new angle which makes me much much happier yay! & Spending money makes me happy too. Very very, happy happy! ^^

Gdnighttt world,
X

2009-08-25T20:12:00.000-07:00

I'm so jealous of you, jealous of you, jealous....... of you.

For you

2009-08-23T06:06:00.000-07:00

It's a Monday tmr, how time flies and it's the day of the week i hate MOST. My Monday Blues symptoms are really quite bad and the ugly school uniform and hair doesn't help, at all.
DRATS!

(my posts are mostly three-liners, i realised.)

Anyway do have a week ahead,
gdnight earthlings! X

Temper

2009-08-22T01:31:00.000-07:00

Chris and Nat are downstairs bathing Max while here i am in her room with fugly hair, screwed up nose and a slight stomach discomfort. Pffft. Sucks being me.

Hi!

2009-08-20T05:15:00.000-07:00

Chop my hair? Chop my hair not? Chop my hair? Chop my hair not?

Anyway O levels are really just 2 months away,

it's welcome to reality.

I'm gonna stay happy.

Gdbyeeeee X

Spill

2009-08-16T03:21:00.000-07:00

"He loves you, He loves you so much.. forever and ever, till the end of time"

Thank you :)

Anyway, i finally spent money.. hehehehee happyyy gonna spend more ^^

2009-08-14T07:21:00.000-07:00

Super low self-esteem. Gonna cry myself to sleep tonight.

Fake

2009-08-13T05:05:00.000-07:00

These are the days of our lives.

The only thing that matters is just following your heart,

and eventually you'll finally get it right.

2009-08-10T07:17:00.000-07:00

me me me me wants............

Back for a little while

2009-08-03T22:13:00.000-07:00

If you wanna know how i feel:

I'm full of confusion, i confess.
Assumptions, accusations.. i've had enough.
True, i'm not blameless, i make mistakes, but i thought we've buried it all?
I left for a reason. I don't like being where everybody puts on a front. Deep down i know where i wanna be, who i wanna be with. I don't choose friends for popularity. Don't just look at the surface of things. Don't judge.
One occurence after another, i've built some form of defensive layer around me- nothing, no one hurts me.
Till the point that it has turned into an icy loop. My heart is so cold, so numb, and almost void of emotions.
Not like in the past, where i used to be the one feeling upset, crying, and wanting everything back.
I can't fucking feel anything anymore.
Last night left me thinking, sorting out every single thought, trying to find an emotion to describe what i've been feeling.
I'm sorry to those that i've caused worry, but just to let you all know that all along i knew what i was doing, i am sober. I'll take care of myself.

Goodbye.

2009-07-29T23:51:00.000-07:00

BYE BYE.

(fo'real)

Queer

2009-07-24T19:30:00.000-07:00

What an interestingly weird Friday night, you could say!

I'm not gonna neglect my studies;

in fact i'm studying even harder.

Ah.. I feel like bidding a temporary goodbye to the Cyberworld.

(disappointments one after another!)

2009-07-21T02:52:00.000-07:00

"I've packed a change of clothes and it's time to move on"

Pictures, soon!

Issues

2009-07-18T04:18:00.000-07:00

I care about your feelings enough, to not let my words be daggers.

Because i know when some things leave your mouth, you can never take them back again.

Something in me tells me that i shouldn't be bothered bout such stuff anymore, why dwell upon it so much.. why fight so hard.. i shall just lean back and watch everything fall into place. beauty of the works of God i believe.

PS. Breastie i'm feeling your joy from where you are now hahaha i know you know what i'm talking about! (don't you ever think about giving away any part of the love you have for me pfft)